Tianhe Gao

Knowing oneself, grasp the world

Run 7 kilometers, Jupiter at opposition

I worked eight hours of overtime yesterday, and didn't want to work any more in the evening because I felt unwell, so I went home and slept from 6 pm to 9 pm. Seeing photos of the starry sky on my WeChat Moments reminded me that I could observe the "Jupiter opposition" phenomenon. So, I put on warm clothes, went downstairs, walked to an open area in a nearby park, lay down on the ground, and held up my binoculars. At first, I couldn't find Jupiter, so I opened a star chart app and found that Jupiter was roughly in the northeast at that time. Through the binoculars, Jupiter appeared as a very bright dot, but because the magnification of the binoculars wasn't high, Jupiter's rings weren't very clear. I didn't fall asleep until after 2 AM this morning, and woke up after 8 AM. The sun was shining brightly outside, reaching the balcony, so I took out the blankets that hadn't been aired for a few days to dry. I was thinking about whether to go for a run. The reason I wanted to run is because of the marathon next week; if I don't run a long distance, I might not be able to finish the actual marathon. I set my fitness watch to 11 kilometers, but only ran 7 kilometers. My shoes started rubbing my feet while I was running, and when I took them off when I got home, I saw I had a blister on my foot :). I was constantly breathing heavily while running because I haven't run a long distance in a long time. Fortunately, I felt pretty good after the run, but my foot was still hurting because of the blister, so I could only walk a bit and then stop. While running, I listened to an episode of the podcast "Culture Limited" that talked about some things about Buddhism and mentioned many profound concepts that I don't quite understand yet, but I want to learn more about them.

2026/1/11

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跑步七公里，木星冲日

昨天加班了八小时，晚上不想继续加班因为觉得自己身体有些难受，就回家睡觉了，从六点睡到九点。看朋友圈有人发星空的照片，我才想到可以观测“木星冲日”的天象。于是，穿好保暖的衣服就下楼，走到附近公园的开阔处，躺在地上手举着双筒望远镜看，一开始没找到木星在哪里，于是打开一个能显示星图的app，找到木星那个时候大概在东北方向。望远镜看木星是一个很亮的圆点，由于望远镜的倍率不高，所以木星的圆环看不太清。今天凌晨两点多才睡，醒来已经八点多了。外面太阳真好呀，照到阳台上，把有几天没晒的被子拿出来晾晒。心里想着要不要跑步呢，之所以想跑是因为下周的马拉松，如果不跑一次长距离真正跑马拉松的时候可能会无法坚持下来。运动手表设定十一公里，最后只跑了七公里。因为跑着跑着鞋子磨脚，后面到家脱鞋一看，脚上已经磨了一个水泡:)。跑步的时候一直呼气吸气个不停，因为我很久没跑长距离了。好在跑完步状态还不错，就是脚因为水泡一直疼，只能走一段停一段。跑步的时候听了《文化有限》频道的一期播客，里面讲到了佛教的一些东西，提到很多深刻概念，我还不太懂，但是想要学习了解。

2026/1/11

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2025 年终总结

今年做了很多尝试，被父母逼着去了一次相亲、看了几场音乐剧、计划看两场演唱会（都被取消:-)）、看了两场Live、写了找女朋友的文章、和来深圳打工的妹妹一起吃了顿狼狈饭、去了一次香港；经历了一次很严重的压抑阶段，堪比22年那次。多读书：25年阅读时间近600h，读了几部长篇网文，也读了几本非虚构提高积极情绪占比：会在人前微笑了，心态的确比年初时积极许多，经历更加丰富了支付战争 by Eric M. Jackson 不要因为走得太远而忘记为什么出发：陈虻，我们听你讲 by 徐泓在春天 by Karl Ove Knausgård 窗边的小豆豆&续 by 黑柳彻子东莞乐队和流水线上的孔雀们 by 袁斯来（谷雨实验室）别相信直觉 by Seth Stephens-Davidowitz 消失的多巴胺 by Tanith Carey 神曲 by Dante 失明症漫记 by José Saramago 可能性的艺术 by 刘瑜希望之书 by Jane Goodall 被讨厌的勇气 by 岸见一郎, 古贺史健在找这些书的时候，发现很多都忘记讲的什么内容了，如果不是微信读书有记录。我都不会记得今年读过这本书。思维能力的提升折腾中心全部放在Emacs，其他技术只要能维持正常学习生活运转，就不再投入精力深度钻研摒除一切非必要消费欲望，记账规划财务

2026/1/1

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Teeth Cleaning

Back in early November, I was reading up on health stuff, dental health included. The advice was to get your teeth cleaned regularly—it gets rid of tartar and plaque, preventing all sorts of oral problems. Didn’t do much research for the clinic. Just did a quick search on WeChat and Amap and found Tongbu Dental. Booked an appointment for today two weeks ago at their Xixiang branch. Took almost 50 minutes to get there from my place. So yeah, based on that alone, won’t be going back there next time. They put this mask over your face, everything but your mouth, because that operating light is insanely bright and uncomfortable otherwise. Didn’t hurt much during the cleaning, just a bit of sensitivity in one spot. But I was pretty on edge the whole time, scared I’d suddenly get a shooting pain. Thankfully, that never happened. The Meituan group deal was only 68 yuan—felt almost too cheap. I’ve asked around, and my colleagues have paid two or three hundred. I’ll try somewhere else next time, test out different chains and see what the difference is.

2025/11/30

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洗牙

11月初的那段时间，在了解健康方面的知识，其中就有牙齿相关的内容。建议是每隔一段时间就洗一次牙，可以去除牙结石和牙菌斑，预防很多口腔疾病。找口腔医院的话没怎么调研，就是在微信和高德地图上搜了一下，找到了同步齿科。两周以前约的今天，在他们的西乡店。离我住的地方不近，花了50分钟左右才到。所以基于这一点，下次洗牙不会选择这个地方了。洗牙的时候会用一个面罩盖住除嘴以外的位置，因为无影灯光线太强，不盖的话人会不舒服。清洁的时候，我没觉得有很痛的地方，只是清洁到某个部位时有轻微的酸。不过，在过程中我到是挺紧张的，害怕自己突然牙痛。所幸这种事并没有发生。美团团购价只花了68块，觉得有些太便宜了，我问过同事，他们花两三百的都有。下次换一家看看，多尝试不同品牌的口腔医院，看看有什么区别。

2025/11/30

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Romeo and Juliet (musical)

I bought tickets for this show the day it went on pre-sale—two tickets in total, costing over a thousand yuan. I wanted to watch it with a girl, and even looked for someone online. Eventually, someone did watch it with me, but it wasn't at all like I'd imagined. Today, I want to say: finding someone you like is actually quite difficult. When the mother tells Juliet that she must marry, there are two real people upstairs, and downstairs, as if mirrored, two more people, hidden in the shadows. I think this is a representation of the inner world of the mother and Juliet. Expressing their inner struggles through physical performance is quite interesting. The dance of death runs throughout the play; it's a very special element. The shadow of death looms over it constantly, and the tragedy reaches its climax at the moment of death. I really liked the encore songs, and here are a few excerpts: Avoir 20 ans, c'est jusqu'au matin Being 20 means living until morning Avoir 20 ans, c'est gratter sur des guitares Being 20 means strumming guitars Refaire le monde même si ça change rien Reinventing the world even if it changes nothing Avoir 20 ans, c'est rêver tout haut Being 20 means dreaming out loud Nous, on n'a rien du tout We have absolutely nothing La vie devant nous Our whole lives ahead of us Avoir 20 ans, c'est trembler de peur Being 20 means trembling with fear D'oser aimer, d'ouvrir son cœur Of daring to love, of opening your heart Avoir 20 ans, c'est se mettre en colère Being 20 means getting angry Ne croire en rien mais attendre tout Believing in nothing but expecting everything Avoir 20 ans, c'est rêver tout haut Being 20 means dreaming out loud Let us all strive together.

2025/11/23

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罗密欧与朱丽叶 Roméo et Juliette (musical)

这部剧刚开始预售的那天，我就买了，而且买了两张，花了一千多。心里想找个女孩一块看，甚至还在网络中找人，最后的确有人和我一起看，只是全然没有了当时幻想的样子。在今天，我想说：找到一个喜欢的人，还是蛮难的。当母亲告诉朱丽叶，她必须嫁人时。楼上有真实的两人，楼下仿佛是镜像一般也有两人，处于暗中。我以为这是母亲和朱丽叶的内心的具象。通过动作表演来表达双方的内心挣扎，很是有趣。死神的舞蹈贯穿剧目始终，是个很特别的存在。死亡阴影一直笼罩在其中，一场悲剧在人死亡的那一刻达到剧情的高潮。返场曲目我很喜欢，摘录只言片语： Avoir 20 ans, c'est jusqu'au matin 二十当头，通宵悠游 Avoir 20 ans, c'est gratter sur des guitares 二十当头，抱起吉他胡弹乱奏 Refaire le monde même si ça change rien 想改变世界，可世界依旧 Avoir 20 ans, c'est rêver tout haut 二十当头，天真梦想云雾飘游 Nous, on n'a rien du tout 我们，一无所有 La vie devant nous 只有生活在前头 Avoir 20 ans, c'est trembler de peur 二十当头，彷徨无奈 D'oser aimer, d'ouvrir son cœur 谁敢为爱，敞开心怀 Avoir 20 ans, c'est se mettre en colère 二十当头，一腔愤慨 Ne croire en rien mais attendre tout 只信美梦，渴望期待 Avoir 20 ans, c'est rêver tout haut 二十当头，大声梦想与诸君共勉

2025/11/23

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Stargazing Diary 251105

Yesterday, almost twelve o'clock in the middle of the night just finished the supper, suddenly remembered that today has the largest full moon of the year, picked up a long unused telescope, came to the balcony. Seeing a lot of stars with a telescope, the weather is really good today. The moon was above my head, and the telescope was raised to look hard, but it was hard to shake, so I had to put down the telescope and look at the round moon. Think about something I don’t know so-called.

2025/11/6

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观星记-251105

昨天快半夜十二点了刚吃完夜宵，突然想起来今天有今年最大的满月，拿起很久不用的望远镜，来到阳台。用望远镜看到很多的星星，今天天气真不错。月亮在我的头顶，举起望远镜艰难地望到了，可是晃动着很难受，只得放下望远镜，目视着那轮圆月。心里想着一些不知所谓的事情。

2025/11/6

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梦醒了，我哭得厉害

六点零五分我被惊醒了。写下了下面这些文字。在梦里，又和我父亲闹矛盾了。我很怕我的父亲，打心眼里恐惧的那种。从这次梦里我意识到了这一点。清醒的时候，我并不知道，自己原来这么害怕。梦里父亲在和我说着什么。我回答道：我根本不知道你在说什么，我听不懂。这就是冲突的起点，后来父亲就开始和人打电话，说什么儿子长大了，不孝顺之类的话。后来的话越来越难听。可能是潜意识里的我太害怕了，就哭了。告诉自己要从梦中醒来。可能，如果不醒来的话会有更糟糕的事情发生。我是六点五分醒的，一醒来我便记录下来这些心绪，一边记录一边哭泣。我已经想不起上次哭得这么厉害是什么时候了。我为什么哭得这样厉害？直接原因是父亲。当我渐渐长大，和父亲没有沟通变成了自然的事情。和父亲沟通变得愈来愈困难。在我的想象里父亲是固执的，说不了三两句便又吵起来，索性就不说了。间接原因是愈来愈多的压力。大家都很清楚，人在社会中会遇到各种压力，明面上的暗地里的，我是个在这方面笨拙的人，很多的压力我都是后知后觉。我需要一次发泄，让这些压力随之而去，我好重新开始，继续新的社畜生活。我可以直接说：没有朋友。我说的朋友是指可以把这些苦闷分享的人。也可能是自己主动选择，因为大概没有人想要听我的抱怨吧。所以我就把它放到博客上，这也是一种宣泄了。所以，我比以往任何时候都更渴望亲密关系，我多么希望有那么一个人能陪在我身边呀。可是，现实往往并不如意。我不知道遇到那个人还要多久。但当我遇到时一定会快乐无比。

2025/10/31

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